He brought out the best in each of us. Practicing with him, I was strongest in body and endurance than I had aver been. My creativity was at its best. as he started breathing with us, we easily flowed back into the simple present moment. I learned to start practicing what I was preaching so well, as some of us teach what we most need to learn. Some of us
are good at using words and theories, but putting the true yoga into practice is a whole different dimension.
While similar in many ways, in no way do I claim to being like he was when teaching yoga. He showed me my limits were only in my mind. And everything that might or might not have happened between us has no words.
Just before I met
Sean I started to produce a
yoga instructional
video, for our start
up company iPlay2Learn. Digital download media, instructional videos. A new concept at the time, and with Sean in the video, I never doubted it would
succeed even if we
did not yet have the
experience of
producing instructional videos.
As friends we exchanged ideas and created new ones, we did not have much time to discuss our histories. We did not have to justify our instincts. We both valued our privacy. We recognized in each other a true potential for a partnership that remained undefined. We trusted our intuition and we did not have time to evaluate, but just were sure that we could trust each other . There was no time to explore the connection.
My mentor supported my video project, and agreed on the importance of having legal release forms- so that I would be able and responsible for our privacy, for protecting our images from being used in ways not intended.
Because life often does not turn out as planned, the path changed, but the intention that he and I created is still alive.
And now with him missing, I will stand for both of us.
Therefore I have and always will do what he trusted me to do today - use my intuition and best judgment in the events of any unforeseen changes in our plans. For the family and friends who requested video copies, I made some slight adjustments and placed them on you tube as our server could not handle so many downloads by so many people at the same time.
I had no words back then, now it is time to publish the Best and let go of the rest.